Dear Bishop, priests and Sisters of
Mangalore Diocese
I am
writing this letter with utmost sadness and disappointment in the way you teach
Catholics in Mangalore diocese. I have recently left priesthood because of
various reasons. This has left a permanent scar in my heart. I cannot talk to
my parents anymore and everyone who celebrated my triumph as priest has told me
to go to hell. I am like dead person for them. I have been hearing all sorts of
rumors and hurtful things in the last few years. I am not going to illustrate
anything but you know exactly what happens when someone leaves priesthood or
religious life.
I
have become untouchable and cast away from society. This is the price I have to
pay for being a Catholic, in fact belonging to a religion that I had clue
about. While I was baby I was baptized without one clue what I am getting into.
I am not going to discuss theological issues and my difficulties in believing
in any crap from theology. I believe in God and I am a spiritual person and I
live a good life. I lived a good life as a priest and I will continue to live
that life. I want to bring it to your attention only human dimension and not
theological discourse. As human, how can any living person can remain without
loved by someone? I am not interested in the crap that Jesus will help us when
we are in need of emotional and sexual help. I am also disheartened for many
things in the Church. But I will not enumerate anyone of them. Each one of you
knows what I am talking.
My
family has abandoned me because I am no more priest now. They celebrated my priesthood
saying I will bless their family weddings, and funeral etc. I don’t want to
give up my entire life to bless wedding and funerals. If you teach family is
the domestic church, why would any family abandon their own son? Why don’t you
teach that leaving priesthood is not a curse or end of the world or not shame
to family? Leaving priesthood must be taught as any other divorce or nullity
crap. I heard all good things about me as priest but now I hear only bad
things. It is high time that narrow-minded Mangalore Catholics be taught right
thing about Jesus and His Church and stop with crap teaching about priesthood
and religious life. How can it be a curse on me when I leave priesthood? Will
my God disown me and destroy me because I left priesthood to marry the person I
love? God created love between man and woman. He did not create curse at all.
I
want you to open you horizon and come out of your little bedroom and little
chapels and see the real world. I want you to open up your minds and hearts.
Priesthood must be considered like any other profession/job and not sacred
crap. I think priesthood must be like any other thing. In fact priesthood has
easy and joyful life except for sex, even that some of you might get it. I just
want you to teach love and not hatred about God. God does not hate anyone,
whether ex-priest or divorcee. He loves everyone equally. It is the middlemen
who teach about God from their perspective teach hatred. I want you to stop
this. I want you to circulate this letter and I will follow up with this letter
with my expositions on theological difficulties to believe in Church crap. But
mind you, I am very spiritual and fully loved by God. You may say, I am crazy
or lost marbles or want to settle score but please do know that I am fully
settled person in life and I have a wonderful family of my own.
Yours
sincerely
Ex-priest
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